I decided to write this entry after many of the discussions I’ve had lately really makes this statement hit home. The bar isn’t set very high for pornstars and everyone seems to accept this standard without even flinching. As I read things in the forums and even the mainstream media and political outlets, it really shows in every statement how people think we’re somehow less than other human beings. And if you really look at the basis of these comments and who they come from, is it any wonder that so many good girls fall through the cracks of the real world and end up in Porn Valley, just as Elli did.
I want to talk a little about the psychology of girls in porn and of the world that watches these girls. There’s such a dicodomy in the relationship here. When our kids are little, we say we’d do anything to protect them. Most parents would loudly and proudly exclaim that they’d give their lives for their children. Somewhere there’s a short circuit in that process. Because all these girls doing porn are someones daughters AND there’s no one coming in to protect them. In fact, there’s industry regulators, media and politicians saying putting their lives at risk is not a major or serious event. In fact, there’s many out there that say that it’s a risk we in porn should just accept as a normal work condition. And you wonder why these same girls ended up in porn!! I always said my kids were the most important thing in my life. When Elli decided she was going into this dark world, I made the choice I’d give my life to keep her safe along the way!!
If our own country doesn’t give a shit about these girls, then why would you think they have enough self esteem to think more about themselves. So many of these girls don’t belong here in Porn Valley. Hell, many of them have only had a few sexual experiences when they get here. There’s no where else for them to turn in many cases. My Elli wanted to go into porn because she had been raised by a single mother. She was tired of living in poverty and saw it as a fun way to make good money. Now Elli’s situation isn’t really bad compared to many girls in the industry and as such, it’s also the reason she feels compelled to get out. She has a good family that loves and supports her. The stories that I’ve heard from girls in all of the adult industries over the past 10 years since I entered my first strip club sometimes makes me sick to my stomach. They definitely make me angry. I have always wanted to help young women have more in life then the world offers them. I have often felt that is what brought me here. I have now seen and experienced what they go through. I now know what needs to be done to help save their lives!!
I still get asked the same questions as I did when we first came out as mother and daughter. And I still answer them all the same. I guess it’s time I put it into a more formal statement. They tried to take my daughter the day they talked her into going into porn. There’s so many false statements in the recruiting process which I’ve heard from many of the agents in porn. There’s nothing out there that tells girls the truth about porn. It’s impossible for young girls to understand what they’re getting into and to make educated decisions. Shit, the underbelly of porn has the whole world convinced that these girls don’t deserve safe working conditions so why would you think these young girls would believe any different??
Many times, the recruiting process of agents of porn is the same as the sexual predator. Find the girls who don’t have stable family lives, those girls who don’t have many options in their lives. Hmmm does that sound familiar?? Isn’t that how predators pick their victims?? Find girls who have no real home life going for them. Offer them excitement, travel, a real modeling career. They’ll shoot for all the big companies – EVERY SINGLE GIRL I know in porn wanted to shoot for Playboy when they came in!! The agents all say “Of course, you can shoot for Playboy”. They just conveniently forget to mention it’s the internet site not the glamorous and iconic Playboy Magazine that you’ll shoot for. They say they’re going to be the next Jenna Jameson. They just don’t mention to read her book first to see what she went through to get where she is now!!
They don’t want girls with too much self esteem or too much self control. It’s all about breaking them in and breaking them down until they will do anything, even 2-3 cocks in the pussy or ass. Let’s see, how about 2 cocks in the pussy and 3 cocks in the ass. Let’s see how much this little girl can take. If that doesn’t do it, let’s sign her on for some fetish shoots. Nothing like a little BDSM to get her in shape. We’ll just beat the fucking shit out of her until there’s no self esteem left at all. Elli and I have been through our share. I haven’t really talked about that much before due to safety reasons while shooting. The hazing and the breaking down that happens when you come to LA is an experience in itself. Shooting porn in Miami was kids play compared to LA. We had no idea what we were getting into once we got to LA. And once there, what can the average 18-19 year old do? Well, first they’re having fun so they don’t even know they’re there. They have no idea what’s ahead of them, at first it’s hot guys, lots of attention, big bucks and fun parties. Then reality sets in and the other stuff is added. And added. And added. And added until they’re broken down and totally owned.
There’s girls in porn who are in college and there’s women in porn who have successful corporate careers and have college degrees. Many of these female performers skate around on the edges of Porn Valley. They come in to make a little extra money but they don’t get involved. There’s also many women in porn who know the truth about what goes on. No one likes to talk about it because they will be ostracized from working with many companies if they do. It’s not necessarily the companies we work with who control our destinies in the adult industries. I shot pretty regularly as a MILF/Cougar but I was definitely kept from certain circles to keep me from being in the spotlight. You can see how it happens with many girls’ careers in Porn Valley. Don’t set the bar too high for yourself or you probably won’t get very far. I have said this many times before that if you track the majority of the women who are successful in porn, you’ll find that they’ve gone through the entire gamma of shooting, escorting and bdsm before they got to where they are now. And the vast majority of females in production and agencies are also personally involved with major male players of the porn industry. If there one single woman in porn whose done it all without being broken down and owned by a man in porn first, I’d like to know who they are and why they aren’t doing more to stop all the abuse. The secret sex society in porn will break you down and then rebuild you . . . as a clone of themselves. Think stepford wives sexualized.
Don’t think for a minute just because it’s a woman in porn, that you can trust her to lead you through the haze of Porn Valley safely. There’s many women in porn who will abuse the new girls just to keep themselves from being there instead. There’s many who are definitely domms and these young girls are their prey and playtoys to abuse. Don’t think for a minute that just because they are females, they give a damn about these girls. You see, just as the victims in many kidnappings by sexual predators, we all know they will help get the next victim so that their own asses are spared.
It’s one of the reasons I write the way I do. I know some love my style here and some hate it. I write the way I do here because the bar for pornstars is set so damn low and my point here has always been that it really doesn’t matter how I write. THE BAR IS SET SO DAMN LOW THAT AMERICA DOESN’T EVEN CARE IF OUR DAUGHTERS DIE HERE FROM HIV IN PORN VALLEY!! IF AMERICA ISN’T GOING TO GIVE THEM BETTER OR AT LEAST SAFER OPTIONS IN LIFE, I GUESS I’LL AT LEAST KNOW I DID ALL THAT I COULD TO SPARE THEIR LIVES WHILE THEY GROW UP AND FIND THEIR OWN WAY. HOPEFULLY THEY’LL GET OUT OF PORN VALLEY WITH A FUTURE! THESE GIRLS ARE JUST OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL AND KNOW NOTHING OF LIFE! YOU EXPECT THEM TO UNDERSTAND THAT PORN VALLEY IS A MODERN DAY SODOM AND GOMORRAH?????
HOW CAN THESE GIRLS UNDERSTAND WHAT THEY’RE GETTING INTO WHEN THE REST OF THE WORLD DOESN’T KNOW OR DOESN’T CARE?? I THINK IT’S QUITE EVIDENT HOW MUCH AMERICA CARES FOR THEIR OWN DAUGHTERS. I KNOW I’M WILLING TO GIVE MY LIFE FOR MY CHILDREN. NEXT TIME YOU SAY THAT, THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU’D REALLY DO FOR THEM!! IF YOU REALLY FEEL THAT WAY, THEN CONTACT YOUR POLITICIANS. LET THEM KNOW THAT AMERICA DOESN’T WANT THESE GIRLS AT RISK ANYMORE. LET THEM KNOW YOUR ENTERTAINMENT AND YOUR ORGASM ISN’T WORTH THEIR FUCKING LIVES!!!
OR IS IT?? ONLY TIME WILL TELL IF CUMMING IS WORTH THEIR DYING!!!